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Name: Bethany
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Los Angeles
Birthday: 12/24/1977
Gender: Female


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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Hi Ate Us

Hello...so in case anyone ever stops by this blog anymore, you will see that it is not very well maintained. I guess I'm not really in a blogging place these days. Hope you all are well, and I will still try to stop by your blogs from time to time to catch up on how you are! (I think lately I've just felt a real pull in the direction of more personal interaction...and away from the computer...)

But when I start up my PhD program at F.U.L.L.E.R. Seminary in the fall (it's not an acronym, I just don't want someone to find this blog in a web search), I might be in a more blogging place again. Or maybe even before. Who knows. Until then though, peace to everyone who reads this.

(And, if any of you know me in real life and want to know what's going on in my life, please feel free to call me or email or IM or something...and maybe even we can meet up! I'm much more in a place for that these days.)

Hasta Luego.

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Blue Horse
By The Be Good Tanyas
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Thursday, March 20, 2008

One Resolution Down!

There's a mountain not too far from where I live where, at the top, there is the ruins of an old hotel (from the early 1900s) and some leftover stuff from an old railroad line that was there a long time ago. It's about 3 miles to get to the top of the mountain. I've gone on this trail about 4-5 times over the past year with friends of mine, but we could never make it to the top. Now, a 6 mile walk isn't that far in general, but when the first 3 of those miles are an uphill climb, it's more of a challenge, and I hadn't yet made it to the top.

So one of my new years' resolutions (the others being to take more fashion risks and to spend more time with my family) was to conquer this mountain. Well, with huge blisters on my heels (that sadly appeared about 2 miles up, even with the blister block I always put on before a hike) I made it up to the top. The last mile or so was no joke...and I wanted to turn back several times. One time I actually did turn around as if to start heading down, but then I decided to ignore the pain and just power through. It was not easy at all, but I made it! It was a nice feeling of victory - conquering the mountain.

About halfway up you cross through those big metal powerline towers. It's kind of cool, actually. If you've ever wondered what it looks like from underneath one, here ya go:
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You can see one side of the windy trail it takes to get up the mountain (there's more on the other side of the mountain too). This picture was taken about 2 miles up, with 1 more mile to get to the top.
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There are ruins and old railroad stuff at the top.
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Yay!!! One resolution down.
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Remember Me
By Otis Redding
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Saturday, March 08, 2008

Happy News!

I just found out this evening that I have been accepted to what I have been (as of late) considering my top choice doctoral program. Plus, a full tuition scholarship! After a couple of rejection letters it is nice to feel like there is a place that affirms that the work I want to do is valuable, and is open to me exploring the issues surrounding my area of interest more deeply.

It is really good news, and I'm sure I'll feel more excited about it in the morning. Right now though I just feel sleepy, and think about having to say goodbye to my students at the end of the year.

But it is good news! And when I wake up I am sure I will be elated.  Sometime soon I will post a story of the application process, and how I felt God lead me to where I have now ended up. Because I really have seen God at work in this process over the past several months, and I need to testify (as much to remind myself of it as anything...).

So...yay!

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By Rosie Thomas
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Thursday, February 28, 2008

The Shadow Side

I'm thinking about people and their personalities, and how every type of personality has its gifts and benefits, and its liabilities and annoyances. Some are obvious right when you meet someone--some take a long time to discover. It seems to me that often the more obvious and pronounced someone's gifts are, the more obvious and pronounced are their flaws.

But the thing is, every personality type is a mixture of something you have, and something you don't have (by virtue of having that first thing). Just as an example, if you are loud and boisterous you are not quiet and reserved (not that you can't be each of those things at various times, but usually people are one thing more often, and what I'm getting at is that you can't be both at once). So if in an encounter you choose to be quiet and keep to yourself, you are missing out on the benefits and the liabilities of being very talkative and expressive. The reverse is also true: if you choose to be very talkative and expressive in an encounter you miss out on the benefits and liabilities of being quiet and reserved. Both have their sets of things that can be fun and enjoyable, and things that can be hard and annoying (at least in my estimation).

One thing I come across that makes it tricky for me to know how to correctly and clearly view my own personality traits is that everyone seems to differently prioritize the benefits and the liabilities, and they will often make judgments on someone's personality traits based on their own assessment of what is the most valuable. So there are people who are like, "Those talkative people are self-centered attention whores; it is way better to be quiet and reserved." Then there are people who are like, "Those quiet people are boring and selfish and make everyone else do the work of engaging with them; it's way better to be talkative and engage people."

I sometimes think in these judgmental ways about people's personality traits, but I guess I kind of wish I didn't. What I want is to see people (and have others see me) as having a certain personality, and accepting it, realizing that it comes with some good and some bad. And that sometimes maybe, the bad is a necessary offshoot of a quality that is often good.

I guess this is my weird, vague, convoluted way of saying that when it happens that people don't like me, that doesn't necessarily say anything about me; and that I am trying to figure out what it means to accept and embrace my flaws as a part of me, while still also wanting to be open to God's transforming work in me. And I'm still working out whether it's possible to experience benefits of certain characteristics of mine, and not to experience the liabilities that come with it. Like, does it have to be both? For some reason I have a hunch that they go together, it just seems kind of fatalistic and like I'm not believing God is bigger than that or something.

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By Aretha Franklin
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Sunday, February 17, 2008

Stolen Survey

A Survey: Stolen from Chicken_Pax (who stole it from someone else...) and which I slightly altered...
 
Ten things you wish you could say to people right now (don't list names): 
1. I really want you to realize how wonderful, worthy, and beautiful you are, so you won't keep trying to get all those inconsistent, a--hole men to prove it to you, who only end up hurting you.
2. I don't think we're going to make it if you can't forgive me like I have forgiven you.
3. You talk about what size pants you wear entirely too often.
4. I'm sorry that I have been distant lately, I have been insecure around you for some reason.
5. Even though you are smoking hot, the more I have gotten to know you, the more I find our conversations totally dull.
6. Your encouragement and belief in me has been more important in my life than I think you'll ever know.
7. Thank you for embracing me in all my intensity.
8. You only talk about yourself all the time and it makes me feel used.
9. I thought for sure I was going to get a big crush on you until I found out you were a huge fan of Ron Paul. Now we'll have to wait and see...
10. I think the main reason I like to be around you is that you are not that smart or complicated, and it makes me feel calm.
 
Nine things about yourself:
1. I listen almost exclusively to female singers, and only a few males.
2. For a few years now I have had a strong physical attraction to Indian men (but, let's be honest, I basically like all different men...you are all beautiful beings).
3. I have basically no tolerance for pretension. It would be practically helpful if this wasn't so.
4. Lately I have really gotten into cooking, and every Sunday night I cook a big batch of something and prepack all my lunches for the week.
5. I can really enjoy crude humor and swearing and sex talk.
6. I love to be outside, and am glad to live in an area where I can hang out outside pretty much all year long.
7. Loneliness and disappointment are the two unpleasant feelings I feel the most often.
8. To relieve stress, I sometimes like to sing extremely loudly. (And I do mean extremely.)
9. I don't really believe in ordination (in terms of ordaining people as official pastors and stuff).
 
Eight ways to win your heart:
1. Laugh freely and frequently.
2. Be yourself all the time, even when it's not pretty.
3. Pursue the things you are passionate about.
4. Love people and seek to love them better.
5. Reference the Simpsons casually in conversation.
6. Be frequently affectionate and comfortable with your sexuality.
7. Have fun and be friends with people with developmental disabilities.
8. Seek to follow the teachings of Jesus in your daily life.
 
Seven things that cross your mind a lot (in no particular order):
1. Music
2. Following Jesus
3. How to love people
4. Affection/Sex
5. Whether people actually like me
6. My students' quirks
7. Scenes from The Simpsons
 
Six turn offs:
1. Pretense
2. Blindly following the status quo
3. Apathy
4. Sharp criticalness (towards people)
5. Being into material/tangible symbols of status/worth
6. Prudishness
 
Five things you're afraid of:
1. RACCOONS!!!
2. Not being good enough
3. Driving people away
4. My mom dying
5. Doctors
 
Four simple pleasures:
1. Playing catch in the park
2. Laughing with a friend
3. Hanging out by a body of water (lake, river, ocean, I'm not particular...)
4. Taking a shower
 
Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Fall in love (mutually!)
2. Live in community
 
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By Joan Osborne
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